TRIGGER WARNING: MENTAL HEALTH, HEAVY TOPICS, SUICIDE DISCUSSED Man, oh man, how are you man? OK. K. Kinda not cool. Okay. OK. We use man a lot, don’t we. Yes we do. Well we shouldn’t. Why? We oughtn’t. Haven’t heard that word in a while. Yeah. Yeah. But then, thoughts of a suicidal human doesn’t have the crunch to it. What crunch? The crunch of a nodding crumbling patriarchy, (and I hope it dies a slow death, kill it with fire, and every oily fucker supporting it too). You’re being weird again. Again? Again. I’m K, it’s short for Kthanksbye. And this is suicidals anonymous. Except it isn’t. Suicidals don’t come together in a group. Unless you’re Manson’s people. But then you’re not suicidal. I’m on a train, I’ll explain later, but by later I won’t be there anymore, I’ll either be in my empty flat, or, hopefully, not. Floyd is playing Goodbye Cruel World right now. Good good. I don’t want to, and won’t need to, take too much of your novel...
Just one more piece today and no more, I promise. I won't have any more ever. Let me have just one. Please. I don't have to listen to you, not really. I'm the master of my own fate, aren't I? I am. I'll go to the fridge, then? No. I don't want a cold piece. I want a fresh one. Besides, I was saving that one for later. But not so late that a guest comes and opens the fridge. No. Then I'd have to kill him. Or her. Hehe. Whatever it is. Just a piece, then. Alright. I'll take a fresh one. I will. Watch me. Then I'll take the sharpest, cleanest knife from the kitchen and cut it in one go, quickly. By that time, my mouth will be watering and I'd be dying to slurp it up but I'd wait. Should I salt it? Or should I cook it? Spice it? Sprinkle sugar? It'll take too much time to decide, as always. So I'll just have it raw, trying hard not to gulp down the crunchy bone and the chewy phalange. Only then will I turn to look at my dri...
TRIGGER WARNING: MENTAL HEALTH, HEAVY TOPICS, SELF-HARM DISCUSSED 1. Knowing How do I begin to explain what I think of myself, it would require forever and a couple of days more yes and the whole point is simply that I am what I am and I believe what I believe, that is to say I have false beliefs and logically I am well aware that these are false beliefs however I believe them regardless yes regardless of anything and everything that anyone says to anyone else. They call them delusions. Delusional maniac, they told me. You can’t really believe what you believe but I do but you can’t but I do, and all I wanted was a fucken pepsi give me a pepsi. Electric sheep. Guitars. Electric guitars. I am a king. A kang. A god. A gad. I have the irreplaceable belief that I am destined for greatness. No no, not in the way you’d say to a particularly gifted person. You see, I am not particularly gifted, or imparticularly (particle?) impractically. Practically, I am not gifted at al...
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